||[Jul. 30th, 2008|01:49 am]
I went into my Cal 3 final with a 99 average. I'm lucky if I came out with a B, and I'm guessing it will be a C. I don't know what happened. I mean, I know I didn't do most of the homework or review the old tests. I know my brain has refused to retain any information the past few days. Maybe weeks. And I know that I always think I do poorly on tests so people don't believe me anymore. But I swear, there has only been one other time when I thought I would be lucky to make a B, and I ended up with a C in that class. Of course, she was evil, but still. |
Anyway, I cried and I ate something, finally, I had a beer and I fell asleep trying to watch a movie. I feel kind of worthless and like maybe I have no right to be pursuing a math degree. And I'm wondering, how am I going to pass the actuarial exams if I can't even pass a Cal 3 final?
Maybe Dr. Cueva-Parra will feel sorry for me and give me a B. I'd take it. It's just a shitty time to completely lose my mind. I'm not even excited about the semester being over.
I think I'm going to have to give myself a break next semester. Take three classes instead of five.